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The more information I have regarding the session you hunger for, the better able I am to provide it.


That said, I am not suggesting that you dictate what will occur during our time together; rather, give me an outline of your cravings & desires and I'll use that knowledge as I see fit, coloring the space between in shades & combinations you'd have never expected.

Furthermore, sitting down & writing out your requests provides the time & energy required to really articulate your requisites in a way that a in-person conversation right before the session is about to begin simply cannot furnish.

Not that "request" emails are required, but some of my submissives do a really good job of telling me what they want.


I hope you enjoy reading the following appeals as much as I did.

(The following entries are redacted but not edited.)


I was looking back through my emails and I've been coming to see you for at least 10 years now. So, thank you very much for 10+ years of fulfilling my kinky dreams and desires. You are truly exquisite at your craft and a dynamic, kind, honest, and interesting person. Your integrity is second to none.


I also want to thank you, again, for our last visit. It was a while ago but, once again, you made a fantasy become reality. It was an incredible session.


Just to recap, my favorite kinks/fetishes are chastity, tease and denial, bondage, pegging, ass worship, spanking, e-stim and pushing limits.


I really enjoy being restrained weather it's heavy bondage, suspension or just having my hands bound. I think that's why I like chastity so much because it like being in constant bondage as well as the loss of control. Having my hands stretched out (suspended or laying down) above my head, caged and plugged is a huge turn on. Hoods, blindfolds, and gags are good too 🙂


I really like to be spanked. There's something sexy and subby about being bent over with a red ass. I'm willing to push some limits and as much fun as it is to have a sore bum for the drive home, I'm not into any large bruises or bruises that last more than a day or two. One of these times I'll work up the courage for a couple swats from a cane.


Pegging is another favorite. There's something so submissive about being bent over and used. It makes me feel so helpless and submissive. You can through in some humiliation and degradation while you've go me bent over.


Feel free to dress casually and comfortable. I'm just as good with leggings as I am by leather and lace. Actually, I really like leggings/yoga pants. Maybe I'm just an old perv but there's something about a hot woman's ass in leggings that really does it for me 🙂 Either way, wear what you like.


I hope this gives you some ideas. I know our visit is only two hours so I'm excited to see what you work in and what other ideas you have. I'm always open to try something new if there's something you want to do. Please let me know if you have any requests for me. 


Looking forward to seeing you!




Hi Miranda, 


Can't wait to see you again. 


I'm excited to walk down into the Confessional and see you sitting there, so excited. 


85 days, Sept 15 the last time I've pleasured myself. It's been hard not to, but at your request I've been faithful.  I'm hoping you really push me to earn the possibility of getting my male filth out of me.


Please tie my balls up extremely tight, i enjoy that immensely, also could you please incorporate some harsh knees or punches to my nuts. I don't, but i enjoy pushing my ball limits. Should you be so nice to possibly have me on all fours and kick my nuts from behind. I would love to feel some "oh fuck" ball pain. Entirely up to you if you can filter that into the session. I always love the way you just incorporate kneeing, punching, or kicking my nuts when i least expect it. But please some ball pain. 


Serious nipple torture, they've needed it so bad. Granted it's only been a few weeks since I've tortured them myself, but nothing compares to when it's you Miranda, doing the torturing. Love looking into your eyes and sinking further and further into sub space. Please, seriously painful nipple torture. 


The caning, please push my limits further than we've ever gone. If we could do it the same as last session. Please clamp my nipples very tight and hang the big weights from my balls. Push me further than the "that's gonna leave a mark" comment i made last session. I really enjoyed the ochsenziemer cane you did most the caning with, i know it's big and awkward but could you please use Mistress Baton's sjambok for a few. I'm perfectly fine should you cut that down so it's more user friendly for you. Please pick a variety of canes, those are just a couple i would like to use.   Please have my ass hurting before i even leave the Confessional. One more special caning request, may i take a caning for your birthday. Please, that would be an honor. 


My i please worship your feet in however way you would like, i know it's my session but some loving for Mistress's feet for her birthday seems fitting. Up to you. 


Please smother me, make me wiggle to get some air. Torture my nipples. 


Anxious to see your new bondage table and see the ideas you have to secure me to it. I'm fantasizing in my head now. Can't wait to see it. 


I could go on and on but just a few ideas for our next session. Please feel free to push my limits and I'm hoping you let me cum at the end. 85 days is the longest I've went, ever. 29 days longer than my previous record. 


Love you Miranda, Can't wait to see you on the 9th.


Hi Miranda, I am really looking forward to our session.  What I have in mind is along the lines of my usual M.O., although I am combining a role play with a birthday spanking.  I have cut and pasted what I have in mind down below.



For this session Miranda reprises her role as Spanky’s parole officer, and he is long overdue for a reminder to be on his best behavior and not to wear his naughty little booty shorts in public.  In fact, she has him change into them so that he knows exactly why he is being punished.  It’s simple behavioral psychology: booty shorts are equated to pain and bruised ass cheeks.  Booty shorts equal having somebody make a playground out of his asshole.  Wait!  Didn’t Officer Miranda tell him to throw out all his shorty shorts altogether?  What’s he doing still having them in the first place?  Oh, he didn’t listen to her and respect her authority!  Evidently he hadn’t learned his lesson from the three or four other times that she punished him for romping around in public while showing his thighs and hints of ass cheek.  Then there were the “wardrobe malfunctions,” where people caught glimpses of his twig and berries.


When Spanky walks into the room wearing only his tiny little shorts, that is the start of the session.


Even though what Spanky is wearing doesn’t leave much to the imagination, Officer Miranda decides to frisk him.  Perhaps some good old fashioned light CBT and NT are in order.  Not satisfied that he isn't concealing something, she strips off his shorts, leaving Spanky wearing only his birthday suit, and it is not lost on her that it’s his birthday, albeit belated.  She performs a body cavity search to ensure he is not keistering anything.  Then she puts a butt plug in him to ensure that nothing else will end up in there.


After that is done, she puts him across her lap for a long, hard spanking with her hand, the backside of a hairbrush, and that nasty, stingy honey colored paddle.  When she takes breaks between the volleys of spanks, she uses the personal massager to stimulate the butt plug.  The last time she did that, it seemed to make him keep his smart mouth shut. Throughout the session, she also slaps him across his smart mouth for good measure.  The OTK spanking concludes with his birthday spanks: 47 from the honey colored paddle, 46 plus one to grow on.


Well, she feels that he has learned his lesson and has earned his birthday present from her: allowing him to worship her legs and ass while he pleasures himself.  To heighten the tactile experience, she has him wear a blindfold, and has him lay on his back.  She uses the personal massager to stimulate the butt plug, and she knows that caressing his legs and leg on leg contact further arouses him.


When he comes, she forces him to consume it.  She removes the butt plug and then she has him shower, but before he’s allowed to put his clothes back on, he has to take a dozen swats from the school paddle while wearing the offending booty shorts.  After coming, the paddling is extra painful and wearing booty shorts isn't so hot and sexy.


Officer Miranda wears whatever she wants, and as always, I am open to your improvisations and the feel of the session.




I can't wait to see you on Tuesday! For this session, no sounding please. Things are still healing a bit. While on I'm the topic, I am currently locked with my piercing securing the cage. It's a bit of a  pain to take apart - If it's all the same to you, it may be best to stay locked this session. My current situation is a bit cumbersome to lock/unlock. I've been chaste since our exchange on Twitter at the beginning of the month. Thank you. I have a new cage that will be delivered next week that can accommodate the piercing longer term and allow for easier on/off when needed. 


What I'm finding after each of these sessions, no matter the crazy story that I cook up, envisioning our upcoming time together, I'm always left in complete bewilderment on how you shape my desires. I thought about typing up a scene and had a few ideas but for this session, here's some general thoughts, none should be overly surprising.. 


- Can you please fuck me, not a gentle one either - I need one of those masterclass lessons on your phallic expertise. Get my body to betray me. Please teach me how to be fucked. 

- Beat me, take me to the limit and push me beyond. Likewise with any bondage that comes to mind.  

- I'm always down for your special shower and any other similar activities. Which leads me too.. 

- Now that my beard is gone.. Gasmasks! 

- Did I see you got some new zappers? 

- Last session when you said I was owned can you teach me what that really means… 

- Final thought and this one is a bit more specific... I've had this ongoing fantasy of kneeling at your feet, padded and locked, instructed to cum with the wand. I could see this being part of a reward (or punishment). But feel free to save this one if it doesn't fit the rest of the scene or weave it in however it fits. 


Last session (and the past few sessions for that matter), you got me to that subby pinnacle  that gooey place where the only thing on my mind is your next direction or action. The above bullets aside, I just want to hang out in that headspace however the road there looks. 



Hi Miranda, 


Can't wait to see you again. 


I'm excited to walk down into the Confessional and see you sitting there, so excited. 


85 days, Sept 15 the last time I've pleasured myself. It's been hard not to, but at your request I've been faithful.  I'm hoping you really push me to earn the possibility of getting my male filth out of me.


Please tie my balls up extremely tight, i enjoy that immensely, also could you please incorporate some harsh knees or punches to my nuts. I don't, but i enjoy pushing my ball limits. Should you be so nice to possibly have me on all fours and kick my nuts from behind. I would love to feel some "oh fuck" ball pain. Entirely up to you if you can filter that into the session. I always love the way you just incorporate kneeing, punching, or kicking my nuts when i least expect it. But please some ball pain. 


Serious nipple torture, they've needed it so bad. Granted it's only been a few weeks since I've tortured them myself, but nothing compares to when it's you Miranda, doing the torturing. Love looking into your eyes and sinking further and further into sub space. Please, seriously painful nipple torture. 


The caning, please push my limits further than we've ever gone. If we could do it the same as last session. Please clamp my nipples very tight and hang the big weights from my balls. Push me further than the "that's gonna leave a mark" comment i made last session. I really enjoyed the ochsenziemer cane you did most the caning with, i know it's big and awkward but could you please use Mistress Baton's sjambok for a few. I'm perfectly fine should you cut that down so it's more user friendly for you. Please pick a variety of canes, those are just a couple i would like to use.   Please have my ass hurting before i even leave the Confessional. One more special caning request, may i take a caning for your birthday. Please, that would be an honor. 


My i please worship your feet in however way you would like, i know it's my session but some loving for Mistress's feet for her birthday seems fitting. Up to you. 


Please smother me, make me wiggle to get some air. Torture my nipples. 


Anxious to see your new bondage table and see the ideas you have to secure me to it. I'm fantasizing in my head now. Can't wait to see it. 


I could go on and on but just a few ideas for our next session. Please feel free to push my limits and I'm hoping you let me cum at the end. 85 days is the longest I've went, ever. 29 days longer than my previous record. 


Love you Miranda, Can't wait to see you on the 9th.



The other night I was laying on the couch and my dog kept bringing me her tennis ball, trying to get me to take it from her and toss it. She went so far and dropping the ball next to my hand and then nudging my hand towards the ball. Most days I'll eventually give in and toss it for her but the other night, I didn't want her sliding around where I was doing some construction. Instead I tried to get her to play tug and scratched her ears but she wouldn't relent with the tennis ball. Sometimes I feel like I get that way with diapers and w/s in these notes. That space seems to be where most of my fantasies land and I'll never stop picturing variations of being your diapered, piss drinking slave. It's to the point of distraction at times, especially when thinking through ideas for an upcoming session. I'm so grateful for you expanding my view into various play, I sometimes get tunnel vision with this one. As always, if you're not in the mood for this, I completely understand, skip the next paragraph or two.. I'm going to hold off asking in future notes if only to force me to think about other ideas. Feel free to pull this one out whenever you see best. Just know that I'll always have that tennis ball in my mouth..


I don't say the following with any sort of expectation for exception to the rules, please use this to craft whatever you think fits or as a basis for punishment. 


My reoccurring fantasy is a a two part story and the specifics of the scene are less important than how you may bring it to fruition....  Maybe it starts out with me confiding in you about having recently had an accident or you notice a slight smell from my clothes or some other humiliating verbal probing. Or, when traveling by myself, I often spend the evenings drinking a ridiculous amount of water, padding up and then using my wand watching various diaper videos until I cum or fall asleep. Usually waking at some point in the night with my cock straining in it's cage and typically a soaked diaper. I've often thought of settling into my room, enjoying my usual solo play when things are interrupted. Maybe a knock at the door or a teasing text. Naturally, the fantasy (d)evolves from there being tasked with something or instructions in prep of the session. I grappled with how to even ask for something like this or if it should just remain mastubatory fodder. If anything, I just needed to put this out there. It's never about the cumulative time together but the immersion into the experience. However the stage is set, it continues with you placing a diaper on me and any sort of bindings you feel like. I still get super embarrassed about this part of me and struggle with vocalizing it, I ask not only for your patience but also your guidance.  


Leaving plenty of room for interpretation on this part, the surprise is always my favorite part... You tell me I must remain dry for a time period or I have to use the diaper (with permission), set me up for a fail..errr a challenge. Followed by an appropriate punishment or reward. Maybe a spanking or some teasing with the wand. Maybe I have to swallow your piss, spilling any is met with punishment or contrarily, consuming it all is met with reward. Or, I am left to contemplate the situation with the wand teasing me. This is where I get lost on various paths and would ask for your interpretation and decision on how this develops.  


The 2nd part of this is much more graphic and where I've always been hesitant to even bring up due to not wanting to push any boundaries so I just ask that you understand this is where my brain goes when day dreaming. I can't tell you how many times I've thought of being cucked by you. Being forced to sit in a corner while you claim your pleasure and I'm forced to sit with my locked cock and wet diaper, listening to you, maybe stealing a glimpse or two. This is what I can't wrap my head around, it's not the denial or humiliation for me, it's quite the opposite.... You do so much for others, certainly incalculable things for me, that I only dream of world where your pleasure is bountiful (being granted the opportunity to bear witness is a secondary benefit). Beyond that, I typically end up being tasked with cleaning up the mess or otherwise being teased with scraps from the act. I don't know what to do with these thoughts and quite honestly, there are times knowing the impossibility of these desires are quite interesting in itself.


I have always been so nervous about mentioning the above but keep reminding myself of how important honesty is within this space. I said this in one of my follow up notes a while back but I am so fucking grateful for what you do and this place to play, I don't want to ever jeopardize what we currently have. If anything, I hope to give you a glimpse into my madness and provide some inspiration. Or maybe, simply, this flow of thoughts warrants punishment.


Last session you somehow got something new to click for me (in a long line of personal revelations). I can't tell you how much I enjoying being at your feet. Not just the foot play but that level of submission. Being forced to endure your wishes and torments while kneeling. I feel like a make-a-wish kid, it was after one of the first times you sat on my face, err your throne, I had continually dreamt of that exact scene, that position, your illustration of that dream took it to an entirely new level. 


I'm still reeling from that fucking you gave me. I have never felt like that before. Not a real dick or toy has ever done that to me. You own me. And not just in the scene, it's more than I can ever explain, I only assume that with your empathetic abilities you understand the grasp you have on me. You have my full consent on testing this statement. Aside from losing my virginity and the first time I discovered jacking off, that was a life changing orgasm that you led me to. I'd never expect any verbatim repeats of that scene but as I've thought about it, it all came down to your control over me. I've often fantasized but never imagined I'd not only willingly but eagerly hand over the keys to my dick and be excited at the thought of what sort of outcome you had in store for me. 


It's been a while since we played with sounding or you otherwise fucking that little hole.. I recently moved up to the next size piercing and have a bent barbell in now, it's way easier to deal with than those rings. Are you able to sound with it in? One serious note, it was out too long last time and I had a hell of a time getting it back in post-session... or maybe that lagging agony was part of the plan. As always, I make no assumptions of any sort of release from my cage. You had also teased the idea of some needle/cbt play last session but it never showed up. I'm not sure if you sensed some hesitation on my part or if it just didn't end up fitting your flow for the day, in either case this is my official confirmation. 


Lastly, I of course over analyze the shit out of things but I have often worried you may at times hold back in physical or verbal torment. If it's due to any fear of running me off or otherwise going somewhere unwanted, I'm confident we're at a place where I'm comfortable speaking up. You have always been able to teach me new things about myself, I'm ready for the grad level classes. 


This note ended up being all over the place and all of the above it said in total vulnerability without any expectation.. Whatever you read from this, I'm always grateful for our time together. 


Hello, Mistress Miranda my name is Mary I am the wife of Bob Smith, and I would like to discuss a few things with you. I noticed a transaction on my credit card for a deposit to your account. I decided to question my husband knowing he would want to lie to me, I decided to do it so I would have the upper hand. I tied him to the bed which he was all for then attached the shock collar from our dog to his balls, which scared him a little bit LOL. I proceeded to confront him about seeing you, but he denied it and said it was a mistake. But after a few good shocks and some good ass smothering ( you need to work on that by the way he's a pansy ass and should learn to hold his breath longer) he admitted to it. You could be a God send for me. I have a very close girlfriend her name is Peggy we do everything together Bob does not know that Peggy's real name is John. She is my special girlfriend she has been begging me to convince Bob to join in our fun I did not think he would go for it. I see now I might have been wrong! Peggy loves to top and I DO NOT do anal. I bet Bob does! Peg likes his ass. I will be going out of town here soon Bob will be scheduling with you.

Can you help me with a few things we need him ready for? PLEASE. He needs to have a little more control over that pathetic little cock of his. Can you tease and deny him? I do like making it so hard getting him to beg then smacking those balls till that cock disappears then starting over again. I would like him to learn to consume his and Peggy's cum and beg for more. Maybe you can put him in that milking machine and feed him some good treats. I am going to make Bob watch Peg Fuck me to my satisfaction and then Peg wants his ass. I can't wait to watch that. She has a nice cock 8 inches and girthy. He has to want to offer his ass to her beg her to please him (head down ass up enjoy it) and when she's done clean up that spunk. He's a pathetic little wimp, don't be afraid to tell him he is, it turns him on. Smack him in the balls if he gives you any grief you have my permission LOL. You can have the left ball I will take the right one. As long as I have Peggy, he doesn't need them anymore. I love squeezing them and twisting his nipples at the same time till he begs me to stop. One last thing, if you want you can give him the good news about Peggy. Maybe while pissing on that whinny ass head of his, you can tell him. Thank you for all your help I am sure he will be calling you soon to schedule.






Hi Miranda


I am so excited, gonna be 10 years this session, an amazing 10 years. Along with my birthday,  I am very excited to walk into the Confessional and see you again. 


Not gonna lie other than a couple finger twist of my nipples, i have not tortured my nipples at all or cum at all this year. The no nipple torture for me really sucks and combined with no cumming till our 10 year anniversary session.... sucked. 


I can't wait to stare into your eyes has you grab ahold of my nipples, cranking twisting, pulling warming them up for a painful 3 hours. While I'm staring deep into your eyes could you please give me some of your best knees to my balls before you tightly tie them up. 


Please Miranda some hard knees, one good surprise me kick and a good punch to my balls throughout the session. So can't wait to look into your pretty eyes as I slip into subspace throughout the session. 


The corporal, couple sessions ago you had my nipples tightly bound and both heavy weights and some of the smaller ones hanging from my balls as I was tied to your caning bench. Could we please do that scenario again. That was one of the best and hardest canings you ever gave me and being 10 years and my birthday could you please make it longer and harder.  53 years can't wait to feel the ochsenziemer again along with several others.


Possibly a 2 part caning first part tied to your caning bench then laying on your table has you finish with Mistress Baton's heavy sjambok. Either way i am very excited for this and to see the back of your thighs, drives me to take everything you'll give me. 


Nipple torture, please, i know I always say the most extreme you can administer, I so can't wait for them to hurt so bad that i can't torture them for a week. Please very painful. 


Smothering, please push my limits. I love having you control when I'll get to have my next breath of air. Being smothered then allowed a quick gasp of air before another smother and some cranking, clamping of my nipples always excites me. 


Should time allow some of your largest and smallest needles,  wherever you seem fitting. I know of a couple places I'd love to feel the sharp pain of them going in. 


Possibly some electrical. 


Worshiping your feet, your legs and ass. After all it is your 10 year anniversary too, you should be worshiped and pampered some. May I please suck and worship your cock before you shove it in my ass and fuck me.


A few ideas.  Can't wait to feel and see where you take these ideas. Happy 10 years of sessions Miranda. You are by far the best. 


Dear Mistress Miranda:


In advance of the discipline session you've scheduled for me on Friday, January 5, I'd like to share a few ideas. I think it would work well if we used the same frame that we used for our first session: my wife--let's call her "Elle"--is sending me to you to resolve some behavioral problems that she doesn't feel capable of correcting by herself. Elle noticed that my attitude improved significantly after my first session with you: I've been less sullen, more agreeable. But she also wants to call your attention to some other behavior that requires your attention.


My wife has noticed that I'm spending much more time online, and twice in the past two weeks she's caught me masturbating on days when she thought we would have sex. This displeases her--not only because I'm masturbating to images of you instead of her but also because I'm being inconsiderate by doing so at times when it interferes with her plans. So Elle is sending me back to you with a request that you discipline me as you see fit. Given my offenses, you might consider punishing not only my ass but also my hands and cock. (You might go a little easy on my cock, though. My wife doesn't want it damaged to the point that she can't use it.)


Elle has also noticed that my web-browsing history suggests I'm very much fixated on crossdressing and being penetrated. When I'm masturbating to online images, I'm imagining myself as a girl who is sucking on your dildo and being pegged by you. So Elle thinks it would do me good to receive some strap-on training from you. Perhaps you could teach me what happens when a gender-nonconforming male like me actually gets his wish to have both his ass and mouth penetrated.


Or perhaps you'll proceed in a completely different way, one that I haven't even considered. You have broad latitude in deciding what the session should include. I don't need to know in advance where you will take it.


I think it might be helpful if I share some information concerning my sexual response. As I near seventy, I climax less frequently than I did when I was younger. Usually it's about three times per week now, typically once or twice through vanilla sex and once or twice by masturbating. Usually lube proves counterproductive--I need friction. As for anal penetration, I find it most comfortable in the missionary position (with me on my back, on bottom). I don't know whether this will matter for our session because I don't know how soon before the session I will have last climaxed. If I don't cum (or you don't want me to cum), it won't disappoint me. And if I do, it won't interfere with any other plans (because I'll be alone for at least four days after our session). So no pressure--whatever happens is fine.


Thank you for considering my ideas, and thanks very much for your patience. I really am looking forward to seeing you again.






I can't wait to see you again! This string of sessions over the past year has been quite the ride! I know I've said this countless times before but it bears repeating, thank you so much for providing this outlet and safe place to play! Even thought it's only been two months since my last session, it feels like this was longer than the void during Covid. I'm getting a bit gushy so I'll save the rest of this thought for my post-session "thank-you". 


I thought I'd take a bit of a step back from my usual, detailed note and had originally thought to suggest that you pick from anything we've done before or something new you think I'd like. There hasn't been any play that we've done that I didn't enjoy or show me new parts of myself. That being said, I understand the reality of providing some input and ideas for you to work from.. so here's a couple to give you some inspiration but as you'll see below, your surprises are my favorite part! And as always, this isn't s a checklist, just my ruminations after re-reading our previous chapters and prior notes. 


- I've been fantasizing about that new contraption of yours since you asked for my measurements... 


- Diapers, w/s and all the other tangent play... I know this has consumed the past few sessions so if you're not feeling it this time or bored with it, I totally understand. But if you are, no specific asks from me, however it works it's way into the session... Last time I got into my head a bit too much prior to our session and think I may have thrown off your plans not arriving padded. If we're heading down this path, let me know if I should arrive hydrated or any other prep. I also must confess, I have become quite proficient using the wand over my diaper/cage in my own play. Care to make me regret this ability? Either obvious punishments or any other devious torture you conjure up. 


- The session when we went to the medical supply store and ended up at the bar, completely blew my mind. The total surprise from you taking my request and flipping it on it's head. That whole scene was incredible for me. I'm not asking for a sequel but if you have thoughts to build on that, I'm game. I still haven't figured out if it was the public play itself or simply being at your whim in such a different environment, months later still pops up regularly when my mind starts to reminisce. 


-  If there's spanking (or any other types of pain), please take me to a point where I'm begging to stop and then some more - a lot more. After re-reading our prior chapters, each visit seems to take me to new heights of pain. Can we keep climbing that mountain? 


- Consuming your spit, disco-lemonade or sharing your smokey exhales, you otherwise controlling my breath or last time when you instructed me to lick your feet - it's those acts of submission that drive me absolutely wild. Aside from the piss, I would have never thought to ask for those things yet they have impacted me in profound ways. I get a bit anxious when thinking about specific asks when it comes to this stuff so I put this part of my suggestion completely in your hands. 


- I haven't gotten off since I text you about this session in mid-March. I have oscillated between begging for some kind of torturous release or riding the frustration of denial - no matter your decided outcome, I just ask that it be as intense as you care to make it. As hot as it was last time to have you set the code when I left and as un-sexy as the following is, I have a doctors appointment Thursday so I can't stay locked for long post-session. 


This turned out much longer than I originally intended. If none of the above strikes you that day, feel free to tie me up in some sort of predicament and use the time for yourself. 


See you soon! 


Hi Miranda, I am looking forward to our session.  What I have in mind appears below.


Miranda is Spanky’s parole officer and he has just been arrested for indecent exposure. Again.  This time, he was caught at the gym wearing a pair of little booty shorts and it wasn’t just his ass cheeks hanging out.  The gym members got a good view of his naughty bits poking out below the hemline.  Officer Miranda worked it out with the arresting officers and the prosecutor that charges would be dropped and Spanky would be remanded over to her to be appropriately punished for his misbehavior.


The session starts with Miranda admonishing him for his exhibitionist behavior while she cuffs him.  He is such a lookie loo and likes to see the reactions he gets out of people with his exhibitionism, that she takes that away from him by blindfolding him.  Then she frisks him, an opportunity for some light NT and CBT with his other senses heightened.  Of course, he won’t see the face slaps coming either.


Well, there’s one more place she has to search to ensure that Spanky isn’t hiding anything, so the shorts come off and she conducts a body cavity search.  Naked, blind, helpless, and violated, Officer Miranda leads him over to the table for his punishment, where she guides him over her lap for a long, hard OTK spanking with her hand, a hairbrush, and a small paddle or two.


When she is convinced that he has learned how naughty his behaviors have been, she decides to have him show his appreciation to her by allowing him to worship her legs and ass while he is still blindfolded.  She forces him to masturbate and then she makes him consume his own cum.  To ensure that he really did learn his lesson, she gives him twelve hard punishment swats with the school paddle for good measure, which hurt even more after coming.


As always, I am open to your improvisations, professional experience, and whims of the moment.




Douggie's parents were going out of town and asked if he could stay at your house and if you could keep an eye on him for a couple of days.


Of course you agreed as you enjoyed having him around and you never know when he might do something to earn himself a trip over your lap.


One thing he should have known better than to do was to barge into your bedroom without knocking.  


You made it perfectly clear after the first time what would happen if he did it again.


The boy has a tendency to get excited and barge right in to a room or a conversation to get permission for something he wants to do right then and there.


The first time you let it go because you were already fully dressed so there was no real harm done, this time not so much.  


You were dressing for a date and standing there in your sexy underwear when Douggie burst in asking if he could go to the movie with his friend.


When he saw you standing there he knew immediately that he was in for it!  The expression on his face said it all.


You quickly threw on a robe and grabbed your hairbrush.


Then you gave him a stern lecture on why he needs to learn how to knock before entering a room, especially a ladies bedroom.


Naturally he made excuses and tried to get out of the spanking but you were not going to hear it, this was just what you were hoping for, a reason to spank!


A good hard hand spanking followed by a dose of the hairbrush should teach the boy not to enter a ladies room without knocking!


cya soon


9 very good years...... thank you Miranda it's been very rewarding and emotionally fulfilling for me. You've taught me plenty over the last nine years especially in handling pressure. Especially through corporal, granted some sessions i can take more,  I've learned it's mostly mental. If i tell myself i can take it and more, i usually can. Along with your encouragement I hope today to take a very hard caning leaving plenty of marks. Please push me Miranda.


Some ball abuse to very hard knees to some very tight squeezing. Tightly tied with plenty of weights.


It's been 2 weeks since I've tortured my nipples in anyway. Please as I'm sure you know give me the roughest and most challenging you can think of. Please very painful. 


I'm going to keep the rest very short. Should you be willing could we please do some figging during the corporal or for as long as you want to leave it in. Please mark my ass leave some marks that take a week or two. It has been nine years. 


Please your violet wand and the new attachments. Very curious on the branding attachment. 


Please 2 very good kicks to the balls with me on all fours. Kick me from behind. Please at least 2.


Please some very challenging smothering. With you controlling when i get air. Please push me. 


I know I've said it but brutal nipple torture. 


May i please worship your feet and ass.


Just some additional ideas for you to work with. 


Can't wait to see you Wednesday at 10.



I am so excited to talk tomorrow I can't wait. I have been thinking of all of my favorite scenarios and stories. I thought you might enjoy a couple for your role play examples or testimonials page.


I hope you enjoy them.

Story 1

All I knew was that my wife had told me if I didn't pass todays class not to come home, and since she was the breadwinner and had recently caught me cheating on her and had somehow not divorced me I had to do as she said to convince her to stay with me.

I arrived at the assigned address at the assigned time and was greeted by a beautiful woman who introduced herself as Miranda and invited me into a low lit room where she had me sit down beside her. She gently put her hand on my thigh and said "you are here today because you cheated on your wife and you need to be retrained" for a second I thought she was coming on to me. "if you do not do all I say and do not leave here with my approval the locks will be changed before you get home. Do you understand"

"Yes" I said still unsure of what was to come, but I would find out soon enough.

Miranda stood and started to lay out all manner of objects a few paddles, brushes, belts, and vibrators. " have you ever been fucked in the ass?" She asked me pointed;y.

"Hell no" I replied

"that will change today, in fact you will beg for it"

Fat chance I thought.

"now it is time to begin, either strip or leave"

I had no choice, I started to stop as she sat starring and smirking at me. "as I thought" she said as I was naked " a pathetic little dick that can't please your wife, now put these painties on and get over me knee" over the next 30 minutes she paddled, belted and whipped my ass to the point it was red with welts. She pulled the panties up my ass like a wedgie and laughed as I squeeled. She would spank slow and then fast always keeping me on edge and crying. Once I was in tears she started to explain how my life would be, and it was humiliating. She said the other portion of my therapy was to take the place of a cuckold and as she smacked my ass she informed me that my wife's first new lover was pounding her as we speak, "You'll have a nice cream pie waiting at home" she said laughing. My tears were constant at this point when she informed me "the only way the spanking stops is if you beg me to fuck you in the ass, and you need to convince me"

While true I was crying I wasn't wanting to loose my anal cherry, but eventually I could take no ombré and between sobs I said it "please fuck my ass". However instead of the spanking stopping it got harder and faster "I'm not convinced" she said "convince me"

"please please fuck my ass, make me your bitch" I begging with tears running down my face.


I must have convinced her because the spanking stopped and a moment later I felt cold lube on my asshole as she smashed her crotch into my face smothering me with it. "now you'll learn about the other changes in your marriage"she said as she slide her strapon inside me and started to work her cock, which luckily wasn't too large.

"Your wife isn't the only one in your relationship who is going to be seeing other men" she said maliciously. "This marriage counseling is not free you see, and I won't take direct payment. " this sounded bad I thought as she continued to slide in and out of me. " you see right now you owe me $1000 for today and the only way to pay me is to work off your debt." Uh oh I thought. "every month I will schedule an event day with my gay friends and you will be the entertainment for them. Some weeks they may want blow jobs, some weeks tight straight ass, and some weeks they'll want to abuse and humiliate you. For each month you work you will earn $100 so as of now you have 10 weeks of being my slut to pimp out."

As I tried to grasp this shocking turn of events she pounded my ass and I came all over the place.

"that's a big load maybe your excited for this" she laughed

"We'll find out soon" she said laughing hysterically. "I can't wait to force you to suck real cock. And I hope you enjoy the cream pie in your wife's now stretched out pussy"




Story 2

I knew I shouldn't be looking, I had only been renting a room for a week; but when I peeked through the slightly open door and saw her changing and standing in just her panties I couldn't help but look. Just as I started to touch myself I heard the sultry voice that froze me, "You know it's illegal to be a peeping Tom. Get your ass in here."

I walked in with my head hung down.

'What did I tell you would happen if I caught you peeking or snooping around the house" she asked.

She had stated what would happen but I thought she was being dramatic for effect.

She repeated her question more sternly.

'You said I'd be spanked" I said quietly filled with embarrassment.

'That's not exactly what I said, what did I say exactly"

'You sad you'd paddle my bare ass till it was red as panties and I was bawling like a little school girl begging you to stop" I said humiliated.

"you have two choices, I can call the police or you can do everything I say for the next hour. If you choose the second option I want you to strip bare ass naked right now"

I started to strip. As I did she started pulling out all sorts of things. A wooden and plastic paddle, a belt, a strap, a bath brush, and what looked like a small vibratory attached to a harness. When she turned around to look at me completely naked she laughed. "what a pathetic little cock, hopefully your younger is skilled or you'll never please a woman"

She seated herself and mentioned for me to go over her knee. She started with her hand for a few minutes until I was squirming. Then she looped her one leg over mine to hold me in place and went to town with the brush. It may have only lasted for 40 seconds but it felt like 50 fast blows that had me begging for her to stop. When she did she laughed at me and mocked me, "what a pathetic little pussy, are you going to cry?"

When I tried to defiantly say "no" she grabbed my face slapped me and said "yes you will, the real punishment doesn't even start until there are tears" at that point she put me over a spanking bench and went through her other implements makeing me count and thank her for each stroke varying position of me along the way from diaper position to grabbing my ankles. I broke and started to sob during the belt but after the wooden paddle. Finally there was just the plastic paddle left which she warned me would be the hardest. "as long as you stay still and count them these will be the last ten". At 5 I was crying, by 7 it was an open sob. And then on 8 it happened I broke position. She immediate;y stopped and laughed. "This is your fault, don't bother trying to count or stay in position " and she grabbed me around the waist and gave me 10 new full force fast strokes as I openly sobbed and cried. "here let me dry those tears" she said as she smothered my face with her ass and then crotch telling me to kiss it and thank here for taking the time to correct my poor behavior.

"very good, now for the humiliation portion of the punishment " she said as she attached her strapon.

During the spanking I barely noticed her amazing and exposed body because of my own pain, but as she started to slide in my ass I became aware of her wonderful tits and ass. I was overly,aroused by her and her strapon inside of me that I came just as she said "if you cum were repeating this again next month". I don't know if I am afraid of next month or excited for it.


Mistress Miranda:

It has been way too long.  After a couple missed attempts last Fall, I would like to session with you for an hour on Friday 2/17 at 5:30 if possible.


I've noticed on your new website that you are encouraging creative writing regarding appointment requests.  Here's what I have been fantasizing about.


Chapter I 

I see myself spread eagle on the St. Andrew's cross, face forward. Either my feet would be latched to the bottom or on a spreader bar.  My balls are tied with rope and stretched to the spreader bar.  My cock is tied with rope or with a silicon cock ring.  If I don't already have a raging erection, running a  spiked wheel over my balls, the underside of my cock and my nipples should get it to attention.  I should be punished for being aroused whilst in the middle of this predicament. A flogging of my chest, cock an balls should put me in my place. If my cock is drooling like a maniac at this point you should insist that I swallow the drool.   


Chapter II

After my flogging I need to be shocked back into reality with a violet wand.  Maybe a needle to my scrotum would bring the gravity of my circumstances to my senses.  The touch of your flaming hair against my flesh, or a brush of your delicious breasts would provide the strength to endure the next shock.  Once I have been electrified another flogging would knock the excess electrons from my flesh.


Chapter III

After enduring your corporeal ministrations some medical attention will be necessary.. While lying on your exam table an electrified butt plug should get the ole ticker going. My cock is going to need a little backbone.  Starting with maybe a 6mm sound we could work our way up to 10mm if there's enough room in there. Administering the sounds while sitting on my face would probably give you the best view of the proceedings.  After the ticker is going and hopefully my cock has gained some stature I will leave myself at your mercy to employ any devices at your disposal to coax cum from my loins.

That would be the perfect end of  a perfect session!

Thank you for entertaining my request.


Good day Mistress,


It's almost time for our session and the anticipation is killing me. I thought I would write a few things down and send to you, as I'm sure when I see you I will forget or be embarrassed to tell you.


I have prepared by shaving all my hair in my crotch area along with wearing a chastity cage for the past week. In an effort to try something new, I purchased a micro chastity cage (definitely different). Changing out with a longer cage for sleeping.


I ended up deleting all the videos you took of me, big mistake, regretting ever since. If you still have any on your phone let me know, please send. If not, please enjoy in creating more of me tomorrow.


Here are some things I've been imagining;


Think I'm close to an open book for bondage and being exposed to your every whim. Being gagged with spreaders, slobbering on myself, plugged to open me up and then removing to allow all my holes to be used. Estim on my puny penis is always appreciated.


Video me please.


Please treat me like the hore/cum dumpster I am. If you allow me to cum, after all the humiliation (please), please smear all over my face, nose, mouth and make me eat it. Keep me in bondage, balls stretched/gripped, mouth spread and keep the cum on my face to dry, smell and taste with more to cum Please do this multiple times until you cannot extract any more cum from me. I'm getting excited just thinking about. I know guys say they will do it and then back out. But I know you can make me do it. We did four times in a previous season. I Think I can beat that #!


Video me please.


Using a sound is also interesting. You introduced me once in the past.


I know there is more that I will think of.


Looking forward to our session.


Your humble sub


Hello Miranda,


With the holidays behind us (hope you enjoyed yours)  I'd like to book a session for Jan 14 at 1pm.  At one point we worked a deal for hour and a half sessions, is this still possible? If not, lets make it 1 hour.



Get out your boots and chaps, lets do some pony play!



 Its time to do a health check on your herd. Start with the techo colored stallion grazing in your south pasture, hop on and ride him back to the barn.


Once on the exam table, take a few minutes to brush him down and get him relaxed.  Attach the appropriate medical monitoring devices (clamps, plugs....) and run the normal electro/mechanical tests. (violet wand and well whatever we can come up with that sounds fun...) Once you've decided this little stud is good breeding stock, you'll want to set him up for some DNA extraction. Now this breed is a bit tricky to deal with. First you have to stand them upright (you may have to tie it in place) then flog and tease them for awhile. Did I see a horse cock from Bad Dragon on your shelf? Finally get the collection device fitted, hold the reins tight and vigorously stimulate him with the appropriate means. Talking dirty seems to help...



Looking forward to seeing your smile and feeling your firm control.


Jack Rabbit




Hi Miranda


You have no idea how excited I am for our 8 year my 51st birthday session. So looking forward to seeing you again. Loved reading the twitter post about the guy with the worthless cock that wont wake up. I’ve been taking pills for 4 years now before each session, Hotrod 5000 to be exact, they fuckn work. Especially when the session and the nipple torture starts.


Cant wait to walk in this session and give you your anniversary gifts, the bull pizzle and studded ball kicking shoes. Then very excited to where you decide to take things from there, with arriving in chastity and waiting to take my Hotrod 5000 pill with a glass of your fresh nectar. Hoping you let me watch you pour it. Now the fun begins on when you allow me out of chastity.


Please this session really push me to earn the right to cum at the end, push me to take more, and if I can’t, please do not let me cum. Send me home dumb and full of cum for not exceeding Miranda’s expectations. Don’t be afraid to poke fun at me and humiliate me, push me hard.


You know my favorite nipple torture, make it as painful as you can possibly think of.


Ball torture, this is gonna fuckn hurt but kick my balls and you determine how and how many I need to take or no cumming for gary at the end of the session, have to be honest this part scares me the most. But what’s a good session without some pain for the balls. So hope the shoes I made for you fit and you like them. Seeing how much weight you can hang from them is always another fun time for both of us, I remember the time you ended of using chain for more weight. Might have to start using milk jugs full of water, could kick those.


Corporal punishment, really make me earn the privilege of cumming, it’s been quite a few session’s but may I please be gagged with a pair of your freshly worn panties to keep me quiet. Don’t be afraid to mark any part of me, I enjoy seeing the marks for days after each session. Encourage me to keep taking more before whispering into my ear now comes your 51 birthday then 8 very hard anniversary strokes. Please mix up the instruments to your liking and should you be so kind making the last 8 anniversary strokes very hard. Caning, flogging, spanking, strapping, paddling whatever you think will mark me the most. Mark my ass good.


Smothering, please push me, this is becoming another favorite of mine with you controlling my breathing. Long , short times please make me work for air. I know I’ve always chickened out but so think about passing out while being smothered, but this is entirely up to you. I know some fantasies are better off left being fantasies, but really make me struggle and buck for air as you sit and smother me. Kind of like riding a bucking bull. Maybe mix in some nipple torture while you smother me.


Needles and electrical, been quite sometime since we’ve really done much of either. Love the feeling of the needles being pushed through. I know we may not be able to do this or may be a limit of yours but I would love to have needles pushed through my balls. I've watched many on twitter doing this and really excites me to feel the needle piercing and going through the nut.


Mistress’s spit may I please have plenty should you be willing to share. Whether you spit in my mouth, which I love or just spit on me. Can never have too much.


Please some tight bondage, serious nipple torture, smothering, corporal, anything new you can think of. Always wanting to try new and challenging things to push my session experiences. Please really make me work to earn the privilege of cumming or send me home. Should I please you enough to cum I’ve done this once at home hands free cumming, using a constant flow of electrical and more and more pain on my nipples until it gets to the point where the pain makes me cum.


It’s very hard to sit here writing this and not be torturing my nipples, my 2 weeks prior to session of no nipple torture or cumming.


Really looking forward to this anniversary/birthday session.


See you wednesday, fully locked in chastity with my Hotrod 5000 pill in hand.




Thank you so much for your kindness after our last session, I don't know what incantation you sent my way but that entire experience is something that I’ll never forget. Also, your offer to check in post-session was much appreciated, it killed me not to be able to take you up on that but your gesture really meant a lot to me. And let me live in blissful ignorance if I'm mistaken, but your "secret public" message didn't go unnoticed. 


As always, whatever information you use from this note and weave into our time together, is part of the fun. I can get lost in my head thinking about possible scenes and I love your magical way of bringing what I truly need to reality.  


1. Can we open with some intense spanking? One worse than any you've doled out to me before? In our last session, you brought me right to my breaking point and rode that line for a bit, did I miss your PhD in flagellation hanging on the wall somewhere? The amount of algolagnic feelings I've experienced since then has been tremendous. (If it's not apparent, I finally read "Different Love" - lots of new vocabulary words). This time, please push beyond that no matter the noises or reactions I make. Last session, there were two smacks that you delivered, I will never forget, it was right at the point where my body gave up and just had to ride out the sensations. That was such a deeply submissive experience for me, it may have only been a few moments in time but it was one of those experiences where I was totally out of myself, almost watching it unfold in the 3rd person. As I'm reminiscing, that level of surrender happened a few times that day... 


2. To that end, our session back in July really opened me up to the world of W/S. I've been thinking about a possible scene and I totally get it if this is a bridge too far, maybe this will give you some ideas to guide this a different path.. starts with you inserting a catheter in me, robbing me of control more than ever before. I could see this going two ways from here, either you leave it plugged and torment me on the complete control your have over me, maybe I have to endure a particular pain or sensation for a period of time or beg a certain amount before you allow me relief OR if you still have that other diaper, completely rob me of my bodily functions while using a funnel gag to feed me whatever fluids you see fit perpetuating the cycle of helplessness. I'm picturing this with me being bound in in a frog tie on my back but certainly open to whatever would be most realistic. If a medical catheter isn't possible, I recently picked up one of those flat cages, it has a built in sounding rod - I can bring it with me as a plan B. (side note, if you're reading this while I'm there, remind me to tell you about the SHOCKING experience I had the first time I tried it out.) (Double side note - just a few years ago, I could have never imagined I'd enjoy sticking things in my dick as much as I do now, in all sincerity, thank you for opening that door for me.) 


Adding to either path, mixing in a running theme of abandonment/sensory depravation, would really elevate this for me - leaving me bound while you're off to do something else for a bit only surprisingly me with a sporadic sprinkling of pain or unexpected sensations: maybe several strategically placed clothes pins or clamps or some sort of zapper to keep things lively. If it works with the scene, I've been really interested in breath play. I don't have a particular implement in mind, it's more the stacking of experiences - not being able to control my body voiding while starving for breath, drowning in your dew all the while you're tightening nipple clamps or any other variations that strike you in the moment. 


I don't know how practical it would be with your pre-session process or the timing of the day, but if it doesn't disrupt your flow, I thought it would be an interesting layer if you were in street clothes or whatever is most comfortable when I arrive, Whenever the blindfold goes on, , you could use abandonment time to bring Miranda out for GB's session. Coming out of that predicament to the sight of Miranda would likely make my brain explode in the most delightful way. 


3. As I was thinking through this, I really wanted to have a bit of an "Act III", something to punctate the experience but I struggled at first. As I think through the possible flow, I'd imagine at this point I'll be deep into sub-space, please capitalize on that as much as possible? Take me somewhere even deeper. I know this is quite vague, but I'm thinking even just a few minutes with your strap on, additional spanks or a totally different torment, it's more about being in complete submission to the moment. 

If any/all the above isn't feasible, I've always wanted to be fisted... 




Its been about a month since your last encounter with the naughty neighbor boy.  You really gave him a lesson on how to clean up after his dog when he is walking him.  It seems that he got the message but he was really pissed at the old guy down the street Mr Johnson, because he thought he was the one who complained to you about him around about causing the discomfort his poor bottom endured over your lap.


Douggie was only 14 but he definitely thought of himself as a tough guy.   When he saw Mr Johnson out one day after his spanking he went over to his house and threatened to fucking punch him if he ever told on him again.  Of course since you and Mr Johnson were close friends he called you and told you how Douggie had cussed at him and threatened him. He knew you would take care of it for him in a most unpleasant way for Douggie.  You told him not to worry that Douggie would soon have a come to Jesus meeting with your ebony hairbrush and that the boy wouldn't be sitting down again for quite some time after you were through with him!


So you called Douggie over and told him that Mr Johnson called and you were going to blister his ass for being a bully and after you are done he is going to apologize to Me Johnson.


 Of course he says he will never apologize to that old man!  You don't say anything but you are thinking, before I am done you will be begging me to let you apologize you little spoiled brat!


Before you start his spanking you lecture him about how he doesn't look so tough when he's  over your lap begging for it to stop!  You tell him that teaching a bully a lesson is just what a good spanking is for!  Yes you are going to beat his little ass good and there's nothing he can do to stop it.  By the time you are through he will be more than willing to apologize to Mr Johnson, of course he will have already apologized to you over and over......


Then over your lap he goes for yet another stinging lesson on proper behavior!





Dear Miranda,


So looking forward to our session, as always.  I had a couple different thoughts/requests.  Completely up to you of course, or flip a coin, or let GoGo pick....  Regardless, I of course want to start with the usual; gag, butt plug and panties.  Also, again if you wouldn't mind wearing fun colored panties that would be great.  A fun colored bra would also be nice, but my hope is always that it isn't on for long.  Anyway before my mind digresses any further into bras and boobs, here are my thoughts/request:


Thought/Request A.


After the brief prep of gag, butt plug and panties, keeping the session simple but intense focusing on just a few things.  Two things actually, your ass and my ass.  You beating mine and my kissing/being smothered by yours.  Alternating back and forth for several (4-5-6..) rounds with each increasing in severity and intensity: i.e. crop, cane, canadian thing, dragon's tail, sjambok...I of course would love it if some of the smothering/ass kissing rounds included sucking pee from your panties.


Thought/Request B.


Again, after the brief prep of gag, plug and panties being restrained (nothing elaborate, just enough to keep me in place and my hands bound).  Nipple clamps applied and then forced to watch you clean up from the prior session (got the idea from a Tyrone Hughes session). Perhaps your tugging on the clamps or changing to more sinister clamps as I watch and suffer.After the studio is clean you bend me over, beat my ass and then peg me.  Rinse and repeat, alternating between beating and pegging.


Thought/Request C.


Surprise the fuck out of me!  


Regardless of what our session involves I would like, actually love, if it continued a bit after I cum (if so allowed) and you “force” me to kiss your ass and/or smother me some more 😃


Can’t wait to see you!!!



Hi Miranda can't wait for my next session with you, I have some ideas I hope you can use to inflict some very intense pain that I've been so very much wanting. 


Please tie me up with some tight bondage ties, I really enjoy having my arms and hands tied behind my back. I can't utilize any of my upper body strength, forces me to endure the punishment you're about to inflict on me. 


I've really been taking it easy on my nipples lately so feel free to fuck them up and bring tears to my eyes.  Double dog dare ya, betcha can't. Have an idea, two of your most painful clamps on my nipples, rigged with string or chains pulling my nipples up until I'm dam near standing on my tip toes. Since I'm in this position no reason not to cane my ass some. 


Please push my limits on the corporal, from canes, sjambok, serious ball weights. Have a request there, could you please tie my cock and balls up very tight, I would love for you to tie a rope to them. I think I can handle your full body weight hanging from my cock and balls.  I'll lay on the floor, I would live to try. 


Speaking of ball punishment please knee my balls pretty harsh right in the sweet spot. Another idea I've always wanted to do was be on all fours and have you kick my balls from behind, several times till I fall to the floor, please. 


Smothering, I can never get enough of this during our sessions. Please push my limits, I really enjoy having my next breath controlled by you, please make me work for my next breath of air. Please plenty of smothering and breath play. 


Caning, I know you love to cane, please mark my ass. I'm hoping you will have recieved the raw bamboo canes you requested. I so want you to break some on my  ass. Maybe if I'm standing there with a hard on at the start of our session you should cane my cock to let it know Miranda is the one who controls it, not me. 


It's been several sessions since you've fucked my ass, please fuck my ass, I've got the humbler I made for you and would really like for you to fuck me with it on. This humbler is plenty wide for you to grab ahold of and really put pressure on my balls as you fuck me.  May I please worship your cock before you fuck me. 


Electrical, may we please do some really cool electrical, I'll leave this totally up to your imagination. It's been a while. 


Please, plenty of Mistresses spit and hard face slapping, please. I would also live to try some of the news items you've added to the confessional. Please push my limits Miranda.  


If you don't mind may I please worship your ass and feet. 


I know we can't always do everything and some things just may not be practical. Just some ideas.


Can't wait to see you again. 



Hello Mistress,


I was wondering if you'd be up for a session this Thursday night 6:00 or so? If not, no worries- this one's super hardcore. I fully understand if you say no. I've got a very specific idea in mind if you'd be up for it. I want you to make me experience real torture. I'm talking pure suffering. Just know it's for the right reasons and not because of being depressed! This one is the most frightening I've had so far, but I really want to live it out, not just spend forever jacking off about it. Of course, it involves the hand crank generator. I've done several test runs with it, and we will be in consensual non-consent territory nearly immediately. From everything I've read and experienced, I do believe it's all a mental thing and not a true problem.


My thoughts are that you aren't dressed up at all for this session, of course a shower isn't necessary either. I'm thinking when I arrive you are somewhere other than in the studio. We do a brief run through of how to use the crank device (and you can remind me of how you are absolutely going to destroy me). This session is about you causing me as much physical and mental pain as possible with as little "rewards" as possible. After we'd gone over the device and briefly the session you'd instruct me to go to the studio and get myself off, clean up, and put the noise cancelling headphones on while kneeling towards the wall and waiting for you to come down. Please feel free to be the biggest bitch you can be and put off coming down until you're ready. I honestly don't care if you make dinner/ order dinner and wait for it to arrive, or listen to a whole podcast in between, just keep me in suspense/ dread. As soon as I get myself off I know I will not desire this session anymore. However, it would be already agreed upon- and that feeling of dread is nearly mythical, it seems like sometimes you can almost forget that feeling until you're in the moment regretting it. 


Once you come down, you immediately get me into inescapable bondage and gagged on the table and begin a 45 minute torture session. Honest consensual non-consent. You have my permission and I'm asking you to cause me pain far beyond what I think I can handle. That is the whole point of the session. The only reason to stop is a medical emergency. Trust me, you barely have to crank the generator. Please bring out the sadist in you, or the role play of one if that's what works for you. I need you to hurt me as much as you possibly can throughout (without permanent injury of course). Tease me constantly with the feet that I can't have. In the moment, I want to experience stingray pain and regret putting myself in that situation. Please, please make it the absolute worst 45 minutes of my life. I want to regret every single second of it, while praying for it to stop. However, my pitiful pleas must fall on deaf ears. 


This small post on FetLife sums up my feelings on this session "And then the cranking begins, and I am completely unprepared, and it has only been a few seconds and I'm screaming my lungs asking for it to stop. All I get is a gag in my mouth and a full night in hell". Please, make me feel that if you're up for it. 


Talk to you soon,


Dear Miranda,

My wishes and thoughts are not much different than our last session, which by the way was one of if not the best session of my life!  I would like to keep ramping it up; last session you applied 12 cane strokes after some paddling, spanking and lite sjambok... I would love to push the caning to 15 or 18.  

After loosening me up w a nice sized bp, you pegged me with 2 different dildos, the second black and for me fairly big.  Would love to keep pushing these limits too.  


Your Panties: If you would be so kind as to wear something of a color other than black or white please.  If you happen to have them on all day, or from the day before and/or for a work out before our session, so much the better!


My Panties: Please put me in a pair, purely functional so I do not drip all over the place and also to hold the butt plug snuggly in.


My Mouth: Please keep me gagged at all times other than when my mouth is occupied with other fun activities....see below


Your  Voice: I love your words of encouragement and soothing, along with some demeaning rhetoric thrown in i.e. cunt, whore, slut, twat.....


My Ass: I continue to enjoy and want my limits for corporal punishment to be pushed.  I love the stingy implements; cane, dragon's tail and the Canadian thing.  Some hard spanking in addition would also be great.  

My Ass Part II: Please put a plug in early and keep me plugged for the duration, that is other than when you are pegging me like a porn star on steroids.  Please peg me hard and in a variety of vulnerable positions.


Your Ass: Please smother me, a lot, and allow me to kiss and worship your beautiful asset!


My Nipples: In the pain realm, nt is my absolute favorite.  Your biting, clamping and pulling really gets my chemicals churning.  


C and B: It is always risky that tying/binding/stretching my balls will push me over the edge, but obviously my body is super responsive to it.  If possible, I would extremely enjoy some ball bondage and torture.


       Pee: Yes please!  Sucking from your panties as you soak them more and more is a wonderful treat.  


Hi M


You had a job interview at 4:00 and Douggie was supposed to drop off an important tax package for you from his neighbor by 3:30.


It was a perfect opportunity for you to work in an upscale office as a personal assistant to the VP of the company.


Your prospective new boss had a reputation of hiring sexy women.  So you dressed to impress, wearing a sexy black dress with just a peak of lacy black bra showing at the neckline and of course the obligatory sexy black garter and stockings topped off with sexy stiletto heels.  How could he resist hiring you?


Douggie ruined it all by arriving at your house at 4:00 causing you to miss the interview.  You tried calling to reschedule but you were told that missing an appointed time was a deal breaker for him!  


Of course you confront Douggie and ask him why he was late.  He tells you he forgot to put the time on his calendar but he is sure he was supposed to be at your house at 4.  


As you scold Douggie for being late you inform him that since missing your interview was a deal breaker his showing up late is is a butt breaker!


Immediately he begins to  panic,  knowing all to well that he's really gonna get it now.


Immediately he starts begging you not to spank him. He tells you that he is sorry, that it won't happen again.  You tell him you are going to make sure it never happens again and that he isn't near as sorry as he's going to be.


After further scolding him on the evils of being late and missing appointments down comes his pants and over your lap he goes!  You intend to give this naughty boy a really hard hand spanking with no warm up, followed by a dose of your ebony hairbrush that will have him squirming, kicking and promising to never miss another appointment!


By the time you are done he will be truly sorry for being so irresponsible!  Maybe after this he will learn to put his appointments on his calendar.


One day I came home from work thinking nothing was wrong but unknown to me you have discovered my affair . I showered and walked into the bedroom naked . You are there and smiling at me as you walk closer. I smile back and suddenly you bring your knee up into my balls . I groan and collapse, helpless. You kick me again, and grind your knee on my balls ! You grab them next and pull up on them , squeezing and twisting , saying " Do you think I'm stupid?" It hurts so bad I can't fight back and soon I'm trapped in your stocks , my head and hands secured . More knees to my nuts , you punch and slap me as I am helpless! Next I'm blindfolded and gagged with a ball . I feel you tieing my ball sac and soon you start hanging weights on them. All the time you are doing this, I'm still getting hit and kneed. You're laughing now , thinking what to do next ! I jerk as you whip my back and ass with a flogger . It seems to go on and on ! You stop that and go back to my genitals again . Again I have no idea what you are doing with me , until I feel a twinge of something! What is happening now? Another tingle , and another, stronger, I moan , now I know, electricity! You come up to my head, slapping my face while playing with your control box . My cock and balls are dancing to your tune . You uncover my eyes and I notice that you have a strap on cock waving in my face ! "That's right , you're getting this next! " you say ! Around behind me, I feel you lube my ass and soon your big cock slides into me !! You stand and start fucking me , long deep strokes at first , then getting harder until you are pounding me mercilessly. I whimper in my gag and think , someone help , how long can this go on ? You reach around and grab my balls , squeezing and digging your nails into my cock . " I have as much time as it takes " you hiss at me !


Hi Miranda


Seems like just yesterday was my first session but it's been 5 years and this will be my 15th  session. I remember the first time I actually sessioned, walking in and thinking I can't believe I'm actually here, she's gorgeous. 5 years later and the sessions keep getting better and better, I look forward to every session.


Will you please cane my ass the way you did on my birthday, that was ultimately the best caning I've ever had. To the way you warmed my ass up with the flogger to finishing with the sjambok Tyrone got you. Yes, please use that on my ass again but only worse.  I had some of the most beautiful marks you've ever left on my ass.  Please use the sjambok harder this session, could you please cane the back of my thighs the same way, guess I'm saying make my ass look like Tyrone's after you sjambok his ass. 


The most extreme nipple torture you can think of, I always love it when 3 days after my session they still hurt, what can you do to still make them hurt after a week.  I've got some clamps you can put on my nipples to flatten them out more so you can hopefully get your Devil's Clamps on them, I would really like to feel them again. Really torture my nipples, please,  tears in my eyes pain if possible. 


I've wanted to use your winch on the open frame since you built it,  please when you have my balls tied up tight hook them to your winch, I would love to see how far they'll stretch, you'll definitely not have to worry about running out of weights.  I remember you saying how balls are amazing in the amount of punishment they can take. Promise I'll tap if the pain gets to extreme. Should make for an awesome photo op, I've thought about that quite a bit arms tied above, legs chained apart, nipples clamped being pulled, balls being winched up as you begin to warm my ass up with your flogger.


 Please throw in a few ball punches or knees, yes please some hard knees to my balls,  especially if I peek after you told me to keep my eyes closed. Some hard slaps across the face then spitting to remind me just whos in charge, it's Miranda's! But please may I have at least one hard punch, kick, or knee to my nuts. Somehow someway just when I least expect it nailm, please make it a good one right square to the nuts.  


Please smother me, I could do a whole session with just smothering, I enjoy having you decide my next breath and being at your mercy. Being tied to your bench, maybe this time while I'm smothered put your most extreme nipple clamps on my nipples. The smothering along with the nipple pain really gets me aroused, just thinking about it and the endless possibilities of torture going through your mind. Please extreme nipple torture. 


I've often wanted to have a session where at the end if I want to cum I have to eat it or "oh you won't eat your own cum sorry shower and leave" but can never get gutsy enough to eat my own filth. Don't get me wrong you're absolutely gorgeous and I would do it if instructed to, but the thought. I just don't know if I can do it. I've often thought about it but I just don't think I can do it. 


Really looking forward to five years of sessions and #15. Can't wait to see you again. 


Hi Miranda

Can't wait to see you again and feel some intense pain. It's gonna be a great birthday session. 


I'd like to see how many ball kicks I can take, I know I could only take 2 good kicks last time but I want to try for 5 good hard kicks. Maybe this time on all fours and you kick my nuts from behind or me standing with my hands behind my head. Yes throw in a few unexpected kicks from behind, right square to my balls, I really want 5 good kicks. 


Some very extreme nipple torture as always, I love not being able to torture them for a couple days after a session from them being too painful from the session to touch. 


Please smother me, if not with your gorgeous ass maybe some plastic wrap or your hands. I would really like to push the breath play. Since viewing your photos from your recent photo shoot it's a tough decision but I would love either a pair of your freshly worn panties or even a pair of pantyhose shoved in my mouth, should you be so willing, please please. You might be totally against this but i have always found waterboarding arousing, just a thought.  I promise I'll tap and not pass out, I certainly do not want to miss any of my session time. 


It's been a couple sessions since I've been tied to the open frame, the possibilities are endless, arms restrained legs chained apart. Might be a good time to see how far my balls will stretch, I forget how much but I know you've attached well over 20# to my balls. Could you please tie my balls up tight, I really like the feeling of them being tied really tight. 


The corporal, I know it takes a bit to get there but I would love to get my ass to the point it's getting hard from the cane, strap, the flogging or your hand.  You've had my ass there before but it's definitely been a while. I would love my birthday caning after my ass has been beaten pretty good.  Please, this year will be 48 cane strokes. Will you please make the last 8 strokes the hardest. 


It's been a few sessions since you've left me really worship and kiss your ass. Might make for a good predicament bondage scene, my balls tied tightly to something and I have to really pull on them to be able to worship your ass. If you could work it in I would love to worship your strap on and suck your cock, that may be a good predicament too, my balls tied to the back wall and if I want to suck your strapon I have to torture my balls.


Somewhere in the session could you please throw in some hard face slaps, please hard slaps.  Some of Mistress Miranda's spit is always greatly appreciated be it in my mouth or a good spit to the face entirely up to you but I hate to waste any of your spit. 


I really enjoy having my arms tied behind my back, limits my ability to use any arm strength.

Please tear my nipples up and push my ball busting limits even if you spread them out throughout the session. I'm not reframing from torturing my nipples or not cumming this time so maybe you can incorporate into some roll play and punish me. 


I also got you a 28" deer hide dragon tail whip from cane-iac for you to tan my ass with as well. Along with some gags and bondage straps. 


I know we can't do everything but I can't wait to see what direction you take this, my birthday session. Please don't hold back the 31st can't get here soon enough.


Can't wait to see you again. 




Below is an idea for our session, let me know what you think!


It wasn't that long ago that you caught Douggie looking at porn on your computer and you spanked him good for it.  


Imagine your surprise when you find these pictures in your computer history!


How did they get there?  Since Douggie hasn't been around for awhile how could he have been the culprit?  I mean he is in school 

when you are at work. But you know it was him.  He must have skipped school, snuck into your house and hung out there until school was out, but how did he get in?  A quick call to his best friend's mom and she tells you that Douggie was sick on Monday and didn't go to school.  Hmm...


To confirm your suspicion, you find that the spare key that you keep under the mat by your side door is missing!  Douggie must be letting himself in

and using your computer to search porn and who knows what else he is doing?


He asked if he could come and see you , now you know why, he needs to put the key back without you missing it.  


The minute he walks in he knows he is in deep shit because you are dressed like one of the ladies in the pictures and you are brandishing your ebony hairbrush!


Of course he is immediately apologetic and tries to lie his way out of the spanking he knows he deserves but obviously doesn't want.


Thats when you check his pockets and of course you find the key to your door.


His fate is sealed!  He has no choice, you will take him  over you lap for a good old fashioned, bare bottom, hairbrush spanking that he will never forget!  


That boy is in so much trouble with you....


Just sending this email about tomorrow's session because this way I won't try and change my mind and ax for something else instead (because this idea of this much pain is kind of frightening). If you're not up to this particular idea it's not a problem, there's plenty of other possible activities.


I'm thinking something similar to last time in terms of kneeling on rice or such (if you save cleanup from an earlier session to do during this time that's not a problem). It seems like time kneeling or the stocks really mentally and physically wears me down and makes me more vulnerable to feeling the pain later on, without being able to process it as easily. 


I'd love to be made to bring myself to orgasm after spending a few minutes with your feet. Then I'm axing you for the most brutal pain you can give. What you delivered last time was so fantastic. I'm talking about that same kind of pain but for a much longer duration. I'm thinking a set time, maybe 30 minutes of pure agony. Doesn't have to be nonstop hitting obviously (as we have to be safe and sensible adults). I think the idea of the beating being dragged out even if it's a hit every 15 to 30 seconds or so after the breaking point could be pure mental torture. Wanting it to stop but going on for what seems like forever. Only stopping when time is reached or if a problem arises. I want my pleas for mercy to fall on deaf ears. I want you to hit me with the intent of causing as much pain as you can.


I'm legit terrified of this scene but it's what I want if you're up to it. I understand that the immediate aftercare will be limited to basic needs and not much more. That's completely fine with me. 


See you tomorrow,




Hello Mistress,



I'd like to see if you have an opening.


Even after all this time, my heart beats faster and my hands shake a bit when I click on your web site or type out a session request like this!


Session idea:


You found the underground rave was nothing new, maybe a bit boring. Then I starting rubbing against you on the dance floor. It wasn't longer before it seemed this little slut would be a fun plaything for the night. Now you've got me back at your place. Can I handle what you've got in store for me?


I 'd like to focus on eletrical and flogging. Maybe some beads/pegging if there is time.  Before we start, could we do a few 'test' swings with the flogger to agree on a level of force? Same idea with the violet wand too.


Looking forward to it,


Hi Miranda, can't wait to see you and session again, Saturday will be a long 49 days. Long 49 days of not playing with my nipples or cumming.


Please grab my nipples and crank, twist, pull,  torture them. Tie them, put some serious pull to them, you know how much I enjoy having my nipples tortured. Hang some weights from them as your torture my balls, (please read below) I have missed torturing them myself and want to still feel the pain of you torturing them a week later. So ready. 


Please may I have plenty of your spit as well. 


While tied to your open frame and stretched pretty good, legs tied open, please kick me in the balls. I've been wanting kicked a long time but always chicken out. Please push my limits and knee and kick my balls. I want kicked hard so I definitely feel it. Been a really long time since I've felt some serious ball abuse. Please tie them tight,  I'm open to punching as well, but I hope that gives you some ideas. 


May I please have a pair of your panties shoved in my mouth or two to silence me maybe something to cover my eyes as you beat my balls in your cbt chair. Wait that would be a good teasing, please don't do that, I always love watching you in action. 


Smothering, I'm sure you know by now how much I enjoy it and wonder if there is some other forms of breath play that could be incorporated into the session. Maybe some ball punching, flogging or strapping while being smothered and unable to see what you have planned. 


Corporal punishment, I really liked in our last session. I ended up with 100 cane strokes. I would like to push my limits further, please I am very open to being marked. I have nobody to hide them from and want to look at myself in the mirror several days later and see the marks, please push me to take more. May I please have a very intense flogging to get things warming up, be it my back, ass or front. I've never had the back of my thighs caned. When strapping me to your caning bench may I please have my arms tied behind my back to limit ability to push away as you cane me. Please encourage and tease me to accept more and push my limits. Please leave plenty of marks. 


Electrical, it's been a while since we've done much with electrical, maybe some sounds and electrical to really wake things up down there. I'm sure you have some thoughts on this. 


I would love a few minutes to worship your ass and feet.


Please please pleeeeeaaase allow me to cum at the end of our session. l'll be a good sub and take plenty of cane strokes for you.  Please let me cum. 


Can't wait to see you again. 


Mistress Miranda,


I am extremely excited to have been granted the pleasure of submitting to You again later this week.  In preparation for my upcoming session, I have been reflecting on our previous session.  The first thing that always comes to mind when thinking of You, is Your irresistible charm and seductive beauty.  That exquisite beauty, combined with Your expert skill & love for Your profession, cause my heart to beat faster in anticipation of the pain/pleasure I may be permitted to experience in a short few days.  It is amazing how vivid that last session continues to be.


* The warm hug at the bottom of the stairs always has a way of calming my nerves.  


* Your second room was almost complete on my previous visit.  I am so excited to see how it turned out and possibly experience what it has to offer.


* On that occasion You decided to hogtie me (a very first for me) and use the TENS unit to torture my ass, cock & balls.  My balls were securely tied with rope, a couple of electrodes were placed around my stiff cock and my ass was filled with a bipolar butt plug (this provides the most AMAZING feeling).  What I love most about the TENS unit, is the intense pain, instantly followed by the complete absence of pain.  One never knows when the next wave of pain will begin or end, it is simply one of the greatest sensations I have experienced.  Being hogtied provided easy access to my face.  You took full advantage of this by forcing me to worship Your beautiful cock and silky smooth, beautiful smelling, perfect ass.  Failure to do as commanded was punished by a swift slap to the face or a mouth/face full of spit.  I loved the humiliating nature of this torture.  


* Being spanked with Your riding crop, while hogtied, might be one of my new favorites.  I left wishing I had begged for a more severe spanking. 


* A totally new and wonderful experience for me was having You sit on my face.  The excitement of watching Your soft marvelous ass, coming down to cover my face, followed quickly by the shock and horror of realizing that I could no longer breath, was exhilarating.


* Because the session was only an hour long, there were a couple times were You forced me to make a choice about which way the session would progress.  Being forced to choose, was torture in and of itself.  It pained me to only be able to choose one path.  I have only myself to blame.  I should learn to scheduled a longer session.


* There was more humiliation in store.  Mistress, You are unequaled when it comes to the art of pegging.  Having You take me in the missionary position was like being in heaven.  The marvelous feeling was short lived as You placed my cock in the palm of one hand and began spanking it with the other hand.  My brain couldn't keep track of the sensations.  Pain rushing through my cock then the pleasure of feeling Your cock slide deep inside me.


* Nearing the end of the session You informed me that Your bladder was full.  I was told that I would need to make myself hard before being allowed the privilege of having Your warm golden nectar run over my body.  Strangely the pressure of being told to get hard, in order to receive the reward, made it extremely difficult to accomplish.   I was relieved when I was finally able to accomplish my task.  After being teased with a little golden shower I was commanded to make myself cum if I wanted the rest of my reward.  Again the thought of missing out on my reward made it extremely difficult to accomplish my task.  I can't think of a better ending to a session.  Totally humiliated, laying on the shower floor, soaked in my own nasty cum and Your precious nectar.  


Before saying our good byes, You mentioned that I might enjoy trying sounds in our next session.  I haven't been able to stop thinking about that.  My biggest concern is sterilization.  With that concern addressed, I might just be up to trying it.  I would like to request that You increase the intensity of this weeks visit.  Whether it be predicament bondage, harder spankings, more humiliation or more intense CBT (maybe use of the electro ball press board).  As with my previous visits I would request that pegging and golden showers be incorporated if at all possible.  Mistress You always find a way to make each session unique and outstanding.  I know it will be the same this week.  I am eagerly anticipating being in Your presence again.  See You soon!



    Thanks for the appointment time.  I

     As I mentioned before... last session you were pushing fantasy buttons. I’ve had so my fantasies about you over the years ( most I’ll keep to myself).. but one that is recurring.  Would like to repeat a lot of the last one with a few variations if possible.   I’ll try to make it brief and put aside my embarrassment since this is an email.  I’ll try not to be too scripted. 🤷🏼‍♂️

    1. C&B bondage with silicone rings... one around cock and balls, one around balls, and maybe even one at base of cock

     2.  Love the leather arm sleeves you use as well as those leather ankle boot restraints, the pink head harness ( works great)

     3. I’ll let you use your ingenious mind for some excruciating tease and denial.

     4. Finish me off hogtied as usual... but perhaps like my fantasy.... hogtied with spreader bar where arms in leather sleeves tied to spreader bar , and a rope attached to head harness and spreader bar pulling my head back .. forcing me to look straight ahead ( this is key)... attach that crazy black vibrating thing you used before to my cock.... and finally... then the ultimate tease... you in front of me ... close but not too close ... showing me your panty cover crotch... preferably black... can’t explain that one... ( ok I’m embarrassed now) with verbal taunting.   

     So that’s it.   Thanks for listening... first time I’ve ever completely verbalized this to anyone.


Dear Mistress Miranda Rider,

I still can't shake off after our last conversation. Coming from a very closed minded environment it was always very hard for me to understand the surrounding reality. Men had to oppress the women in order to have them on their side. Men had to be dominant even if that behavior went completely against their nature. It was a very dark picture of humanity that I did not want to be a part of.

Until I have discovered FemDom world I had to pretend to be someone that I'm not. Every single family member was very demanding and I was expected to bring a girlfriend to the family dinner, just like every other male of the family would do. I had always have lots of anxiety when it comes to social interaction. It was very hard for me to just "pick up" a girl like she is a product in the market. I've seen many guys doing it and was always very jealous, fantasizing about doing exactly the same thing and then getting intimate with the girls I found attractive. Most of the times I would end up masturbating to that fantasy and not even get a chance to talk to the girl. In few cases when I did I would be instantly rejected.

I was already an adult and my family started to worry. Some of them were laughing behind my back rumoring that I'm gay. I remember that homosexuality was considered something evil in the house I grew up in. I felt very ashamed of that and those gossips were making me mad. I didn't want to be "that evil pervert" that were being cursed constantly by everyone around me. I was very afraid for my life.


After I was making some money and started driving a nice car I have finally gained some value on the sexual market. I finally have managed to start dating! At the beginning I thought that I have crossed some magical line and now I'm on the receiving end. And most importantly... That I will finally lose my virginity that I was extremely ashamed of! Nothing could be further from the truth, however. I turned out to be completely inadequate when it comes to sex. When I was about to have sex for the very first time I was so nervous that I couldn't even get hard. Which in itself wasn't really a big deal to my now ex-girlfriend as she didn't seem to be too interested in having sex with me (especially after seeing the size of my penis). That was pretty much the case with all 3 girlfriends that I have had within the span of my whole lifetime. Even when I did manage to get rock hard the girl wasn't too crazy about the idea of inviting my penis inside of her, and I, on the other hand, was too clumsy to just let myself in. I have never even managed to get the tip of my penis inside of a vagina.

My last girlfriend somehow knew very well what's going on. Even before we started dating she could sense the weakness in me and took control over the relationship. She was willing to come on every single family dinner as my "girlfriend" but our relationship would be very distant from what everyone would expect. The family members felt pretty proud of me since the girl was a very beautiful redhead with shiny blue eyes. Everyone was surprised that "I get to fuck this" (as some of the chauvinistic males put it). I would only go along with their beliefs, not letting them have any idea that I'm still a virgin and this relationship doesn't give me any hope for losing it.

In return, to express my gratitude for giving me that image of an alpha male, I was expected to buy her presents, give her rides and invite her places. I felt very confused about it because deep inside I really enjoyed this lower status. However, because of the social expectations I couldn't really enjoy it, it felt "wrong" and I wanted so badly to be someone that I'm not. I wanted to be seen as alpha, and I was extremely desperate to lose my virginity, feeling like "I can't be a real man until I will lose it". Every time I was trying to make an attempt of losing it with that girlfriend she would tell me "I don't like sex, I'm sort of an asexual person". It hurt my heart every single time I heard it, but I believed her!


One time when I bought us movie tickets and invited her for a date she asked me with a very seductive and cute voice "my best friend is in town now, I haven't seen her for ages! Can I please go with her to see that movie? Please, please, please! You'll be the best boyfriend and you won't regret it, you'll see!". Like always, I would fall for this, in hopes that maybe this time at least I'll get a first blowjob of my life or something (of course, till today no woman ever wanted to suck my tiny cock). She then requested a ride to the cinema. When I've asked her if I will at least get to meet her friend she started acting weird. I dropped her off at the cinema and decided to see what's going on... And now this may sound like a cheap cuckold porn but it really has happened. When I came inside of the cinema building she was making out with a huge black guy right next to the popcorn stand. His hands were on her buttcheeks and she was extremely horny. I couldn't believe my eyes. I ran out, got back to my home and started crying like a baby. I didn't understand anything. My whole world has collapsed, my male ego was crushed, my heart was broken.

I didn't want to hear from her ever again, I was locking myself up in my room for days, weeks, months. Frustration was growing when I was remembering my High-School and College years. So many times I've been secretly in love with many beautiful White girls from my schools that ended up dating big, muscular, sporty, and confident Black guys. Most of the those girls wouldn't even know that I exist and those that knew were completely uninterested even in talking with me. I felt like the frustration is getting way out of control and it slowly converts into hate. I felt like Black guys are doing something that I suppose to do, they are someone that I suppose to be, but for some reason I can't! And whatever else I would be would be wrong and immoral. I felt so bad about myself, I had so many negative emotions.


I was watching porn and masturbate a lot to kill my frustration and grieve. That lead very fast to discovery of my true passion: Female Domination. Little by little I started to feel less guilty and bad about what turns me the most. Seeing all those people having fun, being themselves, submitting to their wives / girlfriends. It was such a big relief to find out that I'm not the only man who is not an alpha.

I then came across a video that BLEW MY MIND (and my balls too, after masturbating to it for many times). It started with a very sexy black, shiny boot. Then that boot went all the way to some male's asshole who was tied tightly. I didn't understand at first what is going on. After rewatching the scene I have noticed that there is a dildo attached to the heel of the boot... Pure genius! I got immediately rock hard after it turned out that the leg belonged to a strict and sexy redhead Dominatrix. It may sounds silly but nothing in my whole life left me that horny as this video did. My hands were shaking, my heart was beating like crazy and my mind was not even capable of understanding anything.


Only in my wildest dreams I would dare to imagine having an interaction with such a strong personality who goes against the social norms and puts the beta white males into their place. After months of seeing that video I have finally gathered a courage to contact this wonderful Woman. And there it finally happened, few days ago I finally could open up myself and be 100% honest about my sexuality and about my sexual status. I was received with lots of warmth and confidence. For that I would like to thank you, Mistress. I really hope my letter doesn't come off the creepy way but being able to interact on a human level with such an open-minded, brave and experienced person like yourself means a ton to me.

I would also like to thank you for accepting my virgin status and expanding it to a full name as "Perpetual Virgin". From now on I will proudly wear this title and I'd love to give you the biggest gift of all: my virginity. That is, a pledge that I will forever stay a virgin and never even get close to a Pussy. For so many centuries Women have been oppressed with imposing standards. Virginity is one of them, and it's time for beta males to take that standard on them, so the Women can finally be free. Free of feeling the responsibility to fuck someone that isn't able to perform well, just because the male ego kicks in.

I think acceptance is extremely important in this world: not only of other people but also of your true self. So many white frustrated males out there spreading hate. If they could only accept their lower status and support Women in making their own choices life would be so much better. I would like to dedicate my life not only to serving a Woman like Yourself but also to promote White Women going Black and enjoying themselves with someone that can satisfy them.


Once again, thank you so much for Your precious attention!



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